I love to blame others...it is so much fun but is truly benefical?  The ten years earlier I spent blaming my parents for things that happened in my life.  No wonder I had to wait.  I am actually grateful for my dad for kicking me out,  No it was time-I was almost 30 living like a teenager.  Before I left home I was needy and critical.  I am still working on the critical.

 Henry Cloud and John Townsend I have helped me to see I am in charge of my own destiny.  It is how you respond to life's obstacles. What do you do when life throws you a monkey wrench-do you hide or do you become better or or do you pray hard.  Life's obstacles may make you critical when you tell others you are a realist. 

In reality the situation may look horrible -but is important that we seek him (Matthew 6:33) 

So don't allow life's obstacles get in the way of your dreams!

 I guess I am trying to grow up. I realized I do want to grow up.  I used to blame my parents for my choices. I am so thankful my parents made me move out at the age of twenty-nine.  I  do miss living with my parents, but It has allowed us to have an adult relationship-versus they enabling me.  Thr family I live with I see how the mother has somewhat crippled her boys from being men.  I am so praying  that when I have sons they will grow up to be godly men.  I do not want them to be lazy.

 So I realized I do want to grow up.  I want to be a woman who can handle life on my own.  I do not want to become a needy and controlling  person.  I believe fear drives many people to control others because they either worry the person will not need them.  I have noticed when you start to have boundaries-people do not know how to handle it. 

  I haven't completely gotten over my fear of what a person will think of me because I am not spending enough time with them. I was becoming just like this person critical and needy.   So, I pray this year I will grow up  and be complete in Christ.